“If a man has an apartment stacked to the ceiling with newspapers we call him crazy. If a woman has a trailer house full of cats we call her nuts. But when people pathologically hoard so much money that they impoverish the entire nation, we put them on the cover of Fortune magazine and pretend they’re role models. ” – unknown
The quote above appeared in front of my screen as I scroll down on my Facebook feed on a Good Friday. And yes, it is something worth reflecting on. See, as of this writing, I only have 400 pesos left in my wallet and I am unemployed. Well, being unemployed is technically my fault but then, that is beside my point.
Having nothing and realizing that you are just worth below the average daily income of a normal person in this country sometimes makes you feel humbled and thankful. Yes, I am technically free-loading and being a stupid parasite in my folks’ home but all these time made me realize things that I am sure I will never realize if I am in one of those regular gigs that my peers curse at this very moment in their mortal existence.
I don’t know.
Disregarding a shirt and a pair of pants that I have managed to own last Christmas, I do not have anything new. I am not going to be a hypocrite about it, I want things. I even think that I need to replace my phone soon. But seeing people my age cashing out on new top-of-the-line things that they need to pay months (or years) for makes me want to rethink life. They do not even have kids yet but here they are spending a lot. Do you really need that stuff? Like REALLY NEED IT ? Because if you are just going to tire your self with a job that you do not really care about and waste your energy on something you are not passionate about. In the end, I think you will not like it.
People push dreams aside these days. I am already seeing artists refuse to draw, writers refuse to word up and brilliant talents go to waste. They say it is ‘practicality’. They say you should be something that this planet needs. Be an accountant! Be an engineer! A doctor! A nurse! Get a job that will pay you real money! Okay… So you have money…
But I can cook!
These past few years, I learned how to cook. I can ace pastas and chicken dishes now. I learned that I can make an apron by hand. I now know that I am extremely neat at times. And most importantly, I learned that people are weird in general. I learned that HR departments are sometimes the most chill places in an entire building and HR personnels are the friendliest in an entire office. I have been interviewed a lot that I think I have memorized all the questions in that psychological test that they all make you answer once they ask you before an interview.
But most of the time, people do not care of the things you know.
What’s in your brain is not that important.
I always tend to doze out once my peers talks about where they work, telling each other how good of a company someone has managed to get into then boasting about the company they are in, weighing on how good the pay is, thinking if they are going to resign or not after being there for six months. They hop from one place to another trying to increase what they will get. Sure, they have money and I don’t but you know what?
Right now, I can truly say right in someone’s face that I am happy. If my life on Earth ends now, I don’t have any regrets. I promise you, I am good to go.
I don’t have money but if the Almighty asks for my life at this very moment, I will gladly hand it over. I will smile and thank Him for all things and all the people that I have managed to meet in my lifetime. It is a good run.
I have come to ponder that people run daily. They even try to outrun each other all the single time. The absurdest thing thing is, people race on milestones! They race like life is a marathon. They race you on finishing college, having that first job, first pay, getting a love life, marriage, having kids, having a family, keeping that family intact, having a car, having a house, having enough to make you live through retirement. They live like that, in that order. I do not know if this should be your or my life cycle but I see people follow that religiously. I know I also have to save for retirement or what not but really, have you asked your self? What do you want to do?
If you talk to a younger version of you today and ask that him or her What do you want to do? Is his or her answer fits your current job today?
I want to congratulate you if it does.
If not. Well, What do you want to really do? What are your passion in life? What are the things that you will still enjoy even if it does not pay you back?
My last question was the most important one. Yes, you will not gain anything from it at first but I hope it does someday. Fuck practicality! I know am crazy to believe in things I am not sure of and maybe that is the sole reason why I only have four-hundred pesos in my wallet right now.
But although I only have that meager amount, like what have said earlier, I will die happy. I believe I lived this life honestly and that is enough.
So, are you happy?
They say money can buy you things.
I do not have that money and I don’t have new things.
So you should be happy.
Besides, you have more in your wallet than mine.