Today, I have been around this earth for 2 1/2 decades.
It has been a long and grueling journey. In fact, when I was 22, I almost believed that I am doomed for life but here I am today; teaching, thinking about all the things that I have to do tomorrow.
All these years, I do not know how I survived all my life,. It seems like I have been running most times. But late last year I have come to realize that I need to stop running and face all the things that I am running away from. I think that thing that just happened to me is what most people call “Growing Up”.
I have came to a point that I do not have any options but to face and love me for who I am which includes all the mistakes and all the regrets. It was a though one to conquer but at the end of the day, those things are really part of you. You already have committed them and those things have made you to be the great person you are today. And they are all you. You are them.
When you are 25, at one point you have to stop and ponder all the things that have happened to you for the past years. And looking back, I have come to realize how looooooooongggg it took to be just merely here, Alive, Surviving.
So I am thankful to all the people that made those 25 years worth 25 years. All the experiences and things that they have imparted to me. All the tears, the laughter, the hellos, the goodbyes, all of it. I am just so glad to have met all of them. If I have to live this life all over again, well let’s be honest, I would edit some out but all in all, this life is a good one so far.
I think being half of fifty is embracing who you truly are, with out all the masks and pretensions you have managed to wear and project all your life. It is embracing your true self and being happy with it.
It’s a year of being happy and proud of who you manage to become despite all the scars that have managed to decorate your skin. It does not even matter if they look pretty or not. At least you have a proof of bravery and your life so far is a witness of courage and undying hope for living.
At one-fourth of a century, honesty is the most important virtue that you can be proud of out there in a world full of temporary and easy-to-dispose things. Honesty will take you places and it will bring a solid integrity to your whole existence. It turns out, Honesty is the new sexy these days and not all people tell the truth always.
I actually like how things have turned out with all the things in it. At least now I know better. I know more stuff now. Life survival skills; cooking without burning anything, general household chores. Creative stuff; blogging, layouting, design, watercolor, painting. And the latest of them all, Teaching stuff; discussing things in front of a class, making exams and quizzes.
See, I know stuff now. I am definitely proud of it!
But if you ask me if I imagine myself reaching full fifty… Hmmmm… Right now, it is beyond me. I do not know and I do not have any clue if I can last that long.
I am just so proud that I have reached a quarter of a whole century, half of what the life expectancy was in the 60s and being 25.
It was a though course of life but look!
I am here, ALIVE.
Here’s to me and to all the people who are turning 25 this year~!
To a good life~!